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Okay Today

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I am doing much better today.  No nausea.  No pills.  No fluids today.  Just a blood draw.  I slept last night.  I’m so tired.  I can do tired.  I have twins.  Tired is nothing. 

I don’t have anything new to update you with.  Just going through the ins and outs of cancer and chemo.  Wishing I had a fast forward button so this could all be behind us. 

I have realized lately how this is affecting Brooklyn.  This is hard for adults to deal with so it’s gotta be tough for a 5-year-old.  She was crying the other day that she wants her mama back.  Having people in the house to help with Brooke, Max and Samantha is such a blessing, but it’s really different for her.  She said she wants me to take her to Captain Sundae, swimming, the park, make her lunch, and not other people.  Basic stuff.  I explained that I will someday soon and that right now I’m fighting cancer.  She asked if cancer was fighting me back and I said yes, cancer and I are in a fight right now, but I’m going to win.   Because I will.  I’m going to win. 

I caught her giggling at my bald head the other day.  I’m glad I can still make her laugh.  🙂 

28 Responses to “Okay Today”

  1. Julie Meyaard says:

    Thrilled to hear that today is a better day! We will be praying specifically for sweet Brooklyn.

  2. Livvy Zimmerman says:

    Lindy, we were out of town for a few days. Just caught up on your most recent posts. Glad to hear you’re feeling better today. I always enjoy reading your words, although they make me so emotional! Hey, we’re on the schedule for this coming Monday’s meal… do you guys like Spinach Mushroom Lasagna, or would you prefer regular lasagna… or something other than lasagna?

  3. Anonymous says:

    You have a precious family! Love you and we’re praying!!

  4. Tina Amaya says:

    Lindy – Glad to hear that today is going better. We’ll continue to pray that there is as much normalcy as possible for your family… whatever level that might be. Still keeping you in prayers all the time.

  5. kathy says:

    No one can do things like mom can. Mom’s are very special people. Brooklyn knows that. Praying that God grants you the strength to do all the normal things again.

  6. Andrea Brink says:

    So glad you are feeling better today. I thought of you when I was at Captain Sundae(or better known to us as the Dairy-Y) the other day. Back when our biggest worry was who would come to visit us at work, and what flavor shake we were going to have that day. Times have changed, but I know you have only gotten stronger with age and you can beat this thing!!!

  7. Jana Ver Beek says:

    I’m thankful that you are feeling some better today. Know that God has you, Dusty and the kids in His loving embrace.
    See you soon.
    Love, Jana

  8. Deb Nienhuis says:

    Thanking God for a better day for you!!!! Can’t wait until you “WIN” this fight with cancer!!!! Stay strong for the fight – keep thinking about the outcome. I can’t tell you how often I think/pray for you and what you are going through. God Bless!

    Love, Deb

  9. Chuck and Barb VZ says:

    Dear Dusty and Lindy,
    Our hearts hurt for you both – can’t even imagine what you are going through, we are praying\thinking of you often – We know you have a fight ahead of you, but as much as you can stay strong. – Isaiah 41:10 say: Do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Love from Chuck and Barb

  10. barb baumann says:

    I thought of Brooke today while I was at work. I prayed for her…and I thanked God for her. She is His …she reflects Him in her her just asking for the basic stuff….my prayers will continue for her as they do for the rest of your family. Always..God is always with you. Matt 28:20 In His Grip..barb

  11. Dani says:

    I am so glad you are having a better day! Megan and Katie pray for Brooke every night. It has to be so hard for her and for you. Hang in there. Praying for you always.

  12. Cara Larsen says:

    Praying the good days will outweigh the bad days! God bless you and your family!

  13. CARL M says:

    Here’s wishing you have nothing but better days ahead. AHEAD?? A.. head… If it makes you feel better I’ll giggle at your bald head also. Love

  14. Jenny(brit) says:

    Dear Lindy,
    I saw your 3 beautiful children today,downtown Zeeland at the sidewalk sale!! At first I glanced and saw these sweet little babies, Max with a ballcap on…just adorible!! And Brooke, such a big talker!! Ther’re growing so!! Im so glad to hear your feeling better today! Im thinking of you often and praying for you and your family!!! You can get through this Lindy.. I know you can!! God bless…
    Love, jenny:)

  15. Holly says:

    Praying every day….hoping you are having a great weekend!

  16. Perla DeLeon says:

    Lindy, I’m glad to hear that today was a good day!
    When I received the news about your situation, the first thing that came to my heart and spirit was that you will have the victory over this cancer. That has been my prayer for you and your family. I know you are in God’s hands, I know you are safe. Your comment for today about Brooklyn giggling about your hair made me recall a funny thing that happended in circle time when out of the blue Brooklyn shouted “Maestra, maestra guess what? My dad is bald!” and she laughed out loud. You have a wonderful daughter and family – I will continue to believe and pray with you for your healing.

    Maestra Perla De Leon

  17. nonnykboom says:

    Hey Lindy,
    Of course when you don’t hear from someone for so long and then something like your sickness occurs, you may think they are responding out of a sense of morbid duty. I can only say that this is not the case at all. May I commend you on your beautiful strenth and fortitude. You are nothing short of inspiring I feel fortunate be within our family. God bless everyone dealing with things as tough as your troubles and those who have not found the strength that you posses.
    Rodney Vermeulen

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