We are settled into our room at Spectrum (Butterworth) Hospital. I had a CT scan of my abdomin and pelvis last night around 10 p.m. I don’t have the results of that. They did a brain MRI at 12:30 a.m. and we got the results of those today. It turns out I have six tumors. Three are quite large and are the ones causing the headpain and nausea. Two are “normal” size and one is very small. The PA from the neurosurgeon’s office said since I had so many of them that surgery isn’t an option in their opinion. She said they would just grow somewhere else in the brain or grow in the same spot.
The PA from Dr. VanderWoude’s office came about an hour ago and said it’s Stage IV cancer and the prognosis isn’t good.
We still have to meet with the Radiation Oncology Team.
My bone scan is scheduled at 3 p.m.
I’m terrified. I cannot bear the thought of leaving my kids without a mom. I know I shouldn’t go there yet because we don’t know the exact prognosis, but that’s where my mind goes. They’re too little. I have to raise them. I’m their mom. I want to be there for them. This is a horrible thing to have to process.
Please pray for:
Results of my bone scan to be cancer free.
Peace and God’s prescence, love and comfort in our lives. I want to hear his voice.
Our kids. Brooklyn is only six, Max and Samantha are 1 1/2 years old. Even if the prognosis were good, this still isn’t fair to them to have their mom away from them.
Our parents. They are our rock for our family. Please pray for strength, peace, endurance and energy to keep up with our kids (my parents are taking care of them right now).
My friends. I have great friends and Jill has been with me every step of the way. She’s even here right now.
Pray that we will not grow weary. I HAVE to beat this. It’s not a choice. God is the great physician and can work miracles. PRAY FOR A MIRACLE!
