Hiatus

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I’ve been taking a hiatus from cancer. I know I have it. I know it’s there, but without chemo I’ve been feeling pretty good and have enjoyed pretending to lead a normal life.

I’ve had a great time over the past few weeks. Max and Samantha turned one. Brooklyn turned six. My dad turned another year older (I don’t think he’d appreciate me writing his age). Jill had a birthday (same goes for Jill). Happy Birthday everyone!

The birthdays are done. The parties are over. It was nice to have them as a distraction. The next part of my cancer journey is about to begin. Surgery is becoming very real to me. For a while it was so far away that I didn’t think about it all the time. Now I have 12 days left. I felt numb for a while, but now I think about it alot. I went for preadmission testing at Holland Hospital yesterday and I think that made it sink in a little more. I’m nervous about the surgery. I’m sad about losing body parts. I’m angry that I won’t be able to hold Max and Samantha for many days.

After surgery I have radiation for 6-8 weeks and then reconstructive surgery. I’m almost half way there.

Thank you for your prayers and supporting my family through this.

Please pray that the next 12 days go quickly for me. That the surgery goes well. That the kids stay healthy. That Dusty is able to deal with the family, work and other obligations.

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