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“Wigging” Out

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I have this intense desire to “nest” before chemo begins.  To get everything in order.  I need to have the house clean, laundry done, the kid’s winter clothes put away and summer clothes out, etc. 

Since Dr. Vander Woude said my hair would DEFINITELY fall out I called our insurance company this morning and was happy to find out that part of the wig cost is covered.  She gave me three stores in Holland to go to.  Also, since I’ll have my hair for only a couple more weeks I always wondered what I would look like with short hair so I made an appointment to have my hair chopped off.  

With my best friend Jill in tow, we spent the afternoon going on a wig hunt.  After realizing the three stores my insurance referred me to were useless (one was in Iowa, the other sold compression garments and the third was closed for lunch and the only thing we saw in the window were orthopedic shoes) we decided to regroup and went out for lunch.  Then we went to the wig store on Lakewood Blvd in Holland.  It was actually kind of fun to try on different styles and colors.  After that, I got my hair chopped off.   Everytime I see myself in the mirrror I take a second look. 

Everyone I see comments on how cheery I am.  I think they expect me to be a wreck.  To be crying constantly or fighting back tears.  Scared or sad.  I’m thinking positively.  I know the prayers that are being said for me are giving me an intense peace.  I’ve resolved to enjoy the good days because I know bad days are coming.  Days where I won’t feel good or I’m too tired to play with my kids.  But the days when I feel okay are the days I’m going to enjoy.  So today was a good day.  I had a lot of fun with my friend wigging out and playing with the kids tonight.

Tomorrow is when all the testing begins.  I have blood work and CT scans tomorrow.  Friday I have the MUGA scan to test my heart.  Monday I have the surgery to implant the port.  Chemo will start on Tuesday or Thursday.  I haven’t heard when the lymph node biopsy will take place. 

I still feel a little numb.  It doesn’t feel real.  Everything is happening so quickly. 

I look forward to reading your emails and comments all the time.  I get so excited to see them.  They lift me up.  The verses and encouragement you’ve shared are extremely comforting.  Thank you for them.  I’m sorry I haven’t been able to email all of you back.  Things are pretty crazy right now. 

16 Responses to ““Wigging” Out”

  1. Ron Boersema says:

    Lindy, Dusty, Brooklyn, Samantha and Max, we continue to lift you up in our individual and family prayers. We serve an awesome God who knows what you need each day and will give you grace sufficient for every day.

    The Boersema Family

  2. Julie Meyaard says:

    Thank you for allowing us to walk with you on this journey…life is crazy sometimes! I always hated rollercoasters and I would sit on the bench and hold everyone’s stuff. I like safe but God seems to do his best work when we are not sitting on the bench. I know that your plans of having a relaxing summer with your beautiful children has taken a sharp turn and it seems so unfair! I’m praying for you lindy…praying for more good days than bad…praying for continued peace…praying that your story may change hearts.
    “Our God is so big, so strong and so mighty there’s NOTHING that our God cannot do!”
    Love and Prayers.

  3. Ok stop spending a fortune on a wig! The American Cancer Society has many styles, at either very reasonable prices or free! Some are hysterically not you, and for the more, hmmm, mature woman. But they have a couple I saw that I thought you might like for under $50. Check out,

    I know I don’t like to ask for help either. And don’t worry about other’s perceptions, there’s no right or wrong way to get through this. Someone special recently told me “God knows your heart.” Just be you. But know you have a whole community right here praying and at the ready. You are not alone.

  4. Tonya Grotenhuis says:

    We are lifting your family up in prayers. We pray you will feel Gods arms around you as you go on this journey. If you need Anything, we are here. Thank you for sharing through this Blog.

  5. Holly says:

    praying for you. that God will be with you every step of the way…and heal you completely.

  6. Barb Dannenberg says:

    Lindy & Dusty,
    Thanks for updating this blog – Lindy, you said last week you weren’t “much of a writer” but WOW – you are doing an awesome job of keeping us informed. Our entire family is lifting your family up in prayer.

  7. Maryann Rondeau says:


    Your attitude and outlook are encouraging. You definetely are in the right frame of mind. I keep asking myself why God is putting so many difficult challenges in your life. I believe that it is not a test of faith, but rather the fact that He knows you will pull through this just fine, and stronger to boot. Praying for you daily and looking forward to your posts.

  8. Lindy,

    you are one strong woman. It is amazing. i want to be more like you! I’ve been thinking about you all the time lately, and whenever i do, i say a prayer for you and your family. God is SO much bigger! We learned this with samantha! He is going to heal you!


  9. julesmay26 says:

    My mom just let me know recently what was going on…I was so taken aback. I couldn’t believe it and my heart sank. But, I am so inspired and encouraged as a Christian knowing how you are handling this! And as you said, there will be bad days, but you have your perspectives in order, that’s for sure! I’m so thankful that we can be here for you! We have been and will certainly continue to keep not only you, but Dusty and the kids in our prayers as well. I don’t work Monday through Wednesday, so whenever you need me, I’m here for you.

  10. Heidi Wolters says:

    Lindy, we are praying for you and your family has god leads you on this journey. We pray the you have minimal side effect to your treatments! If you have not found a wig yet my friend who recently had breast cancer got hers at the place in Zeeland. It had to be orderd but was so close to her real hair it even looked like she had a highlight that had grown out a little! We all were pretty impressed espceially for a bunch of haridressers. Take care!

    Heidi W.

  11. Kim Kolean says:

    Hi Lindy,
    We will be praying for you and your family during your recovery process. When Carole emailed me I was totally shocked. As I sit at my computer tonight I see a deer standing in the grassy field next to our condo association. She stands alone nibbling on grass here and there with the sun shining against her brown fur. Wow, what an awesome sight as I sit here. As I watch this deer, I think of you Lindy. Just as the deer your future is uncertain but must be brave and unwavering in the struggle for survival. You are a fighter and I have this overwhelming feeling in my gut that you will recover fully. And as far as the hair thing goes, I keep going shorter and shorter which is totally “IN” right now. I like to think I’ve been inspired by Adam Lambert from American Idol. I love the spikey look. Have fun with your darling hubby and give those adorable kids an extra hug to two. You GO GIRL!
    Kim Kolean and family (Brad, Justin and Jennavieve too)

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