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I went to Chemoland!

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I wish I could say I’m going to Disneyland, but I have to settle for chemoland instead.  Today was my first chemo treatment and it went as expected.  Dusty went with me and we were fortunate to get a private room with a bed.  I took a nap and Dusty read a book I got him from the library.  It’s for husband’s who have wives who have breast cancer.  Chemo took two hours and I have used every anti-nausea drug they’ve given me.  I’m still a little nauseous, very tired and extremely sore from the biopsy.  I want to fast forward a couple days so the pain from the biopsy and discomfort from the Power Port placement can pass and then all I have to deal with is chemo. 

Brooklyn was so cute last night when I got home from the hospital.  She didn’t want to leave my side.  I went to bed around 8:30.  Brooklyn snuck in my room and quietly sat at the foot of the bed just looking at me.  She thought she was in trouble for getting out of bed.  I told her she could lay in daddy’s spot until he comes to bed, but that she had to be careful not to bump me because I was very sore.  She was extra careful and fell asleep.  It was one of those great moments I’ll never forget. 

Today was hard because it was the first day since we brought Samantha home from the NICU and I hemorrhaged that I didn’t hold the babies.  I couldn’t.  It hurts too much.  I know it’s for the better, but not being able to hold your kids and watching someone else do it is hard.  I’m so thankful they have lots of loving and caring arms to hold them.  

Thank you to the babysitters from today, the awesome meal that was brought in, the kind man who mowed our lawn and my husband whose plate is so full there is no more room.   Thank you to the prayer warriors, meal coordinators, and everyone who has sent us cards, comments and emails.  We can feel your prayers.  I feel a peace that reminds me of that intense peace I felt just 7 months ago when we had a still born daughter who was brought back to life.  Transferred to the NICU.  We were told she was severely brain damaged by the read out on her EEG.  We had people stomping the gates of heaven for her.  God heard our prayers and worked a miracle in her.  Today she is doing everything her brother does (and sometimes better).   God is amazing!

I’m nervous about whether I will be sick tomorrow.  Please pray that I’m not sick from chemo and that the pain and discomfort quickly go away and the healing from the biopsy and surgery is quick.   Please pray for Dusty because things are picking up at work and if you know Dusty he’s a perfectionist so he’ll be stressed about meeting deadlines and taking care of things at home.  Please pray for Brooke and the kids that they stay healthy and keep trusting in God that He will heal me.  Please pray for my parents.  My mom is a rock.  We actually call her glue.  Because sometimes she’s the glue that holds our family together.  Having twins is a lot of work.  Having cancer, chemo and twins is almost undoable.   She knows just when to come over and she blends right in knowing just what to do.  My dad is incredibly generous in helping us with anything we ask and he always does it with a smile on his face.   Please pray for Dusty’s parents too.  His mom has Parkinson’s Disease and they are concerned for us too. 

19 Responses to “I went to Chemoland!”

  1. Prayer Warrior says:

    Love and prayers Lindy. I have no doubt you will make it through this. Thank you for sharing your journey…, Dusty, and your children will love to look back at this ‘journal’ in years to come and see God’s faithfulness.

  2. Holly says:

    Isaiah 43:1-3a “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; YOU ARE MINE. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames (chemo) will not set you ablaze. For I AM THE LORD, YOUR GOD, THE HOLY ONE OF ISRAEL, YOUR SAVIOR.”
    God knew these days long ago and He will be close. I’m kind of suprised however that you are queasy because I’ve been praying and believing for NO NAUSEA! And when you pray you gotta believe! So I will keep praying!
    Love you guys!

  3. Jen TenHarmsel says:

    Glad to see you’re hanging in there I was wondering if it would work out for me to take Brooklyn next Friday in the afternoon…I see your mom on the schedule for babysitting and thought maybe I could pick her up and she could play here with the girls-if this works out with your schedule or if she would like too…I don’t know when a good time to call would be so if you get a quick second let me know if you think this would work out plus I’d just like to say HI for real. Thanks for doing such a great job at keeping us all updated- I’m kind of like you and check it every day to see how you’re doing and what to pray for…Hang in there, one day at a time and you’ll the chemo will be done before you know it. Praying for you and the family like crazy…

  4. Kim Lubbers says:

    You are so awesome at updating this and I love it! I was thinking back today of when you were pregnant with the twins and how sick you were. I asked God to PLEASE give you a break so you don’t have to go through all the nausea with chemo and prayed the anti-nausea drugs work:)Continuing to pray for you all! Love ya:)

  5. Julie Meyers says:

    Hey Lindy! Just wanted you to know I’m thinking of you… luv you!

  6. Amy & Brent Sluiter says:

    Thanks for the update, Lindy. We’re praying that you can feel better today and that the nausea would go away. We’re praying for strength and peace for all of you. Praise God that all your hope is in Him and He will not disappoint. “We put all our hope in the LORD. He is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. Let your unfailing love surround us, LORD, for our hope is in you alone.” Psalm 33:20-22
    May His unfailing love be especially real to you today! With love and prayers, the Sluiters

  7. Good morning Lindy! I am hoping everything is going well for you. You are in my prayers.

  8. Jana says:

    Praying for you all today! I hope Brooklyn is planning on Saturday time with Aunt Jana!
    Love, Jana

  9. Kathy Busscher says:

    Just wanted to let you know that we are continually praying for you and Dusty and the kids, praying specifically for peace, comfort, and strength as you go thru this battle! Praying you will have a good day today..with love and prayers, Kathy

  10. Michelle says:

    Lindy- thanks for the continued updates, we’re praying for you and your family everyday!

  11. Liz TenCate says:

    Hi Lindy,
    I prayed for you today and will continue to pray for peace,strength and comfort as you go thru this journey! Love and prayers!
    Liz TenCate

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